Happy Father's Day to my Daddy !!

I just want you
to know that
even though we're far apart,
not a day goes by
when I don't
think about you.
When trouble comes knocking,
just hearing your voice
gives me a sense of comfort
and peace.
It pleases me to know
that the love
you've instilled in my
heart will be with
me all the days
of my life.

I hope you have
a Father's Day
that's as fantastic
as you are.

Happy Father's Day Daddy!

Lots of Love from us here in Scandinavia...

Farewell to you Grandma..!! May your soul rest in Peace...

It was the most heart breaking phone call, that ever took a place. On March 25th of 2009.

I have called mom just around 2pm and she was crying so much. She had a hard time to speak, and i asked her why she was crying and she told me that my grandma was admitted to the hospital. She got a phone call from my aunt in the afternoon and the aunt told her the bad news and that my grandma was very weak, she was having difficulties to breath and the doctor said that her lungs was in bad condition.



I called the aunt directly and asked her about grandma's condition and she told me that grandma was unconscious and hooked up to a respirator. I asked my aunt to put the phone to my grandma's ear and i started to speak to her 'grandma wake up..open your eyes..it's me calling lingling..please open your eyes so we know that you are with us..' and at the same time my aunt was trying to call her name but she remained unconscious.

Then I told my aunt that i will call again later (that was round 9.30pm). As soon I hung up the phone. I called my mom again ...but dad answered the phone and he told me that they were ready to go back to 'kampung' and mom was so sad. 1 hour later I called mom and she said that they were on their way and almost reached the hospital and i told her that i will call again in 10 minutes. 5 minutes later I received an sms from mom said that grandma have passed away, (3am) without even saying goodbye, my heart was just broken. I couldn't speak, I didn’t know what to say. I just got really weak.. I had to sit down....Just to think and be able to talk. My eyes started swelling from tears so much, of the difficult time, that she have passed. And to think of it I talked to her on the phone, not long ago (week before), I just said "Hello" and said ''Happy Birthday''. I didn’t even had a chance to give her, her birthday present. She just turned 72 years old on 14th March.



Who would ever knew, that she'll be gone so fast. That will never be able to see her again. Now that the spring is coming...and the most of the things I remember is the last time that we've spent together. At least she have stayed with us most of the time during our 2 months holiday in Sabah. The last time I saw her was on 4th February and the last time I spoke to her was on 18th March.



Her never endless love, that's what kept us all.....And to see her being gone will be never forgotten at all. She will be missed a lot....A LOT !

But will see her someday in the heaven. The God took her away from us....but she will be in a better place, She'll be taken care of there and she wont feel the pain anymore but She'll be happy again.

In memory of my grandmother Kagu@Amelia
March 14,1937 - February 25,2009.

Ryan's Nursery....

Ryan's new friend Amelia

Their playroom

Ryan : look mummy i found a car.....

another big car

diaper changing room

eating corner + kitchen

another playroom..especially for girls ( a lot of dolls)

I'm Back..................

after sooooo long time haven't update my blog and look like bersarang laba2 sda....now i'm back again. Been to Malaysia for holiday and it was a very nice holiday for me and my family. mmmm i'll give you this link of my brother's blog so you guys know what happen during the holiday...hahaha thats mean save sikit sa,malas mau update panjang2. Link ;P mond thank you yeee for updating ur blog....

Now we are back in Sweden and the weather is..COLD! been to home for 3 weeks now and busy with Ryan's admission to nursery...doii anakku pigi sikul sda dia...yeah since i dont have amah here and i need to start working soon so we decided to sent Ryan to nursery. It went pretty well on 2 weeks trial....and yesterday was the 1st day i leave Ryan totally alone without me. When i came and picked him up at 2pm, the teacher told me that it went good.. he ate and he slept for 1 1/2 hrs...doii anak ku kuat tidur (mcm bapanya)...actually their sleeping time is between 12noon to 1pm but my baby slept until 1.30pm (talabih sudah tu Ryan). and today when i say good bye to him...bukan pandai peduli mami dia...sibuk mau pigi main saja..so i just left.

mmm thats all for now :) burukkan...sikit saja...anyway good start ba..

Ok reader...to be continue k....daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Thirty-two things that change when you have a baby

What changes when you have a baby? A better question may be: What doesn't change? Here, writer and mom Rebecca Woolf lists her most notable post-baby observations. Then scroll down to read our favorite comments from readers about how their babies changed their lives.

1. You finally stop to smell the roses, because your baby is in your arms.

2. Where you once believed you were fearless, you now find yourself afraid.

3. The sacrifices you thought you made to have a child no longer seem like sacrifices.

4. You respect your body ... finally.

5. You respect your parents and love them in a new way.

6. You find that your baby's pain feels much worse than your own.

7. You believe once again in the things you believed in as a child.

8. You lose touch with the people in your life whom you should have banished years ago.

9. Your heart breaks much more easily.

10. You think of someone else 234,836,178,976 times a day.

11. Every day is a surprise.

12. Bodily functions are no longer repulsive. In fact, they please you. (Hooray for poop!)

13. You look at your baby in the mirror instead of yourself.

14. You become a morning person.

15. Your love becomes limitless, a superhuman power.

And from our readers...

1. "You discover how much there is to say about one tooth." — Ashley's mom

2. "You finally realize that true joy doesn't come from material wealth." — Anonymous

3. "You now know where the sun comes from." — Charlotte

4. "You'd rather buy a plastic tricycle than those shoes that you've been dying to have." — Sophie's mom

5. "You realize that although sticky, lollipops have magical powers." — Roxanne

6. "You don't mind going to bed at 9 p.m. on Friday night." — Kellye

7. "Silence? What's that?" — Anonymous

8. "You realize that the 15 pounds you can't seem to get rid of are totally worth having." — Brenda

9. "You discover an inner strength you never thought you had." — Ronin and Brookie's mom

10. "You no longer rely on a clock — your baby now sets your schedule." — Thomas' mom

11. "You give parents with a screaming child an 'I-know-the-feeling' look instead of a 'Can't-they-shut-him-up?' one." — Jaidyn's mom

12. "Your dog — who used to be your 'baby' — becomes just a dog." — Kara

13. "You take the time for one more hug and kiss even if it means you'll be late." — Tracey

14. "You learn that taking a shower is a luxury." — Jayden's mom

15. "You realize that you can love a complete stranger." — Dezarae's mom

16. You find yourself wanting to make this world a better place. — Arizona

17. If you didn’t believe in love at first sight before, now you do! — Ciara

by Rebecca Woolf

Thanks for all flowers and gifts...!!

Happy Birthday To Me...!! I'm officially 30 !!

Today is my birthday. I'm officially 30. I am not a "20-plus."...no..no..no more :( . I received so many flowers, sms, calls, presents, congrates from my facebook and 'ang-paus'. I would like to thank to all my families, relatives, friends and especially my husband and son for the gifts i got from you, the blessed and the thoughts.

I had 4 days birthday dinner...friday 21th nov, celebrated with my FIL and his wife Lilia, together with my MIL and martin's uncle Hans.





Saturday i celebrated my birthday with my friends...





Thanks for all that coming.....

Goodbye 20s. Hello 30s.